A Letter to The Unborn Child #WriteBravely

“You gave me a forever within the numbered days.” – John Green, The Fault In Our Stars

To my unborn child,

We were happy to see the pregnancy dipstick with the two pink lines on it. We shouted with joy and glee. Though it was going to be a journey of nine months we wanted to make it special from day one for you. We started to take steps so that so may be comfortable in my tummy. We did everything and mostly we started dreaming about you and a future with you.

Then one day I had some pain. But all I was worried about was – you. We rushed to the doctor. She helped me with some medication and asked me to wait and watch. We prayed all night for your safety and well being. But in the morning we felt that we lost the battle. I had acute pain and was rushed to the hospital.

The doctor confirmed that you were not coming and that you bid goodbye to us. Your sac had collapsed. We wondered what wrong we had done.

We returned home with a vacuum. We were taken over with grief. I pined for you and recalled every moment I had with you.

You went to God without meeting us. Though you are in his beautiful presence and I know you are safe, I still wish you would be with us.

There are many sleepless nights when I wonder what you would have looked like, had you been with us. I never had an opportunity to know whether you were a boy or a girl. I miss the fact that I never heard your laughter and cry. I am going to miss when you would take your first step. I am going to miss celebrate your birthdays, miss all your milestones, gazing into your eyes and hold you close to me. I am going to miss reading all the bedtime stories and singing rhymes with you.

I want you to know that I would have been always there for you. Even when I had a pain I was praying for your well being. I would help you through all your struggles. We would have been great friends.

You did not come to this world but I am happy for you that you went to God. I know you are safe in his presence. He has an equally beautiful world and he must have great plans for you.

I want you to know that we love you a lot!

Love Always,

Your mom who remembers you every day

 

“The news of childbirth gives immense happiness. But there are many women who do not get this happiness. We should refrain from asking them about their plans for children. You never know maybe they have been trying but …”

‘I’m Writing Bravely for the Write Tribe Festival of Words – March 2019’

I have written this on the one-word prompt – Grief

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Shubhra Rastogi Written by:

Well, about me I can say that I am a certified dentist, healthcare analyst, medical writer and above all a mother of a 6-year-old. Most of my day to day activities revolve around her and she is my inspiration to start this blog. As a mother, I experimented with a lot of new things for my little one in a quest to find the best for her. I just want to share my experiences of being a happy and content mum.

15 Comments

  1. March 10, 2019
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    Thats so poignant. It is said that not many foetuses are able to withstand the pain or discomfort of pregnancy. But the pain of losing a child in the womb icannot be exxplained.
    More power to you Shubhra

    • Shubhra Rastogi
      March 10, 2019
      Reply

      Thanks for visiting by Bhagyashree

  2. March 10, 2019
    Reply

    Very nicely penned down and could relate to it completely

    • Shubhra Rastogi
      March 10, 2019
      Reply

      Thanks Suhasini

    • Shubhra Rastogi
      March 11, 2019
      Reply

      Yes Kalpana, no woman should undergo the grief to child loss

  3. Jyothi
    March 11, 2019
    Reply

    Such a touching story. The society needs to stop asking such questions. That mind shift has to happen!

    • Shubhra Rastogi
      March 11, 2019
      Reply

      True Jyothi!

  4. March 11, 2019
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    People need to stop asking such personal questions. This kind of grief stays on forever. Very sad but nicely expressed.

    • Shubhra Rastogi
      March 11, 2019
      Reply

      I am glad you liked it!

  5. March 11, 2019
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    Hugs, Shubhra! I can feel the pain of the mother in this post! There are some losses that leave us with a lifetime of pain and this has to be one of them! Not every pain can be compensated with either!

    • Shubhra Rastogi
      March 11, 2019
      Reply

      Yes Esha, there are some losses that leave us with pain for a lifetime. I so wish that no one has to ever go through this pain.

  6. March 11, 2019
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    Hugs, Shubhra! I can feel the pain of the mother in this post! There are some losses that leave us with a lifetime of pain and this has to be one of them! Not every pain can be compensated with, either!

  7. Anagha Yatin
    March 11, 2019
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    I am shaken. With your words, you painted the grief so well that I could see the emotional hurricane that left the mother devastated forever.

    • Shubhra Rastogi
      March 12, 2019
      Reply

      Yes Anagha, this pain leaves a woman devastated. And I often wonder why people keep pushing women with the childbirth question. Maybe the woman has been trying her best but the pain she has gone through … she cannot tell others.

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